Faith Over Fear: Trusting God with Our Gifts After Leaving the New Age

When I left the New Age, one of the hardest parts wasn’t giving up crystals or meditation — it was giving up my gifts: my ability to sense energy and light in my body and in others, to see beyond what was visible, to know when people were being influenced by spirits, or when someone was actively manipulating another.

People in the “New Age to Jesus” community talk a lot about fear — and often, anyone who lets go of spiritual gifts or chooses cessationism is accused of being “fear-based.” But I’ve come to believe that it’s just as fear-based to not close those doors and simply trust God.

It takes incredible courage to surrender everything you’ve built your identity around — especially when it’s something that felt divine.

The Gift of Knowing

For as long as I can remember, I’ve had the gift of knowing. Some might call it prophecy. It’s not something I cultivated; it was just there, an awareness that would surface from time to time.

I told my mom all year that a Christian revival was coming. I didn’t have a word from heaven or a vision — it was simply something I felt deep in my bones. I couldn’t explain it. I didn’t know that Charlie Kirk’s tragic death would become a turning point in that movement. That event was heartbreaking — yet, in its sorrow, I could feel that something was stirring in the Spirit.

I’ve had these experiences all my life. The night before 9/11, I had a vision of Afghani men running planes into buildings. When I visited Syria years later, I sensed the tension of war about to break out — and two months later, it did. I had no reason to know these things. They simply came to me. And this was before I was involved in any spiritual practices at all.

That’s the thing about true gifts: they’re not earned. They’re not controlled. They come from God, and they operate on His timing, not ours.

Surrendering the Supernatural

Letting go of my New Age spiritual abilities was terrifying. I had spent years developing those senses — being able to feel energy, read people’s fields, and perceive what others could not. It gave me a sense of safety, control, and even purpose. But when God asked me to lay it all down, like He asked Abraham to leave everything behind, I had to choose trust over certainty.

These choices weren’t fear-based; they were acts of deep faith. I had to give up the power to heal myself, to know things beyond the natural, and to feel “light” pouring through me — because God was teaching me to believe without constant confirmation. That’s real trust: walking when you can’t see, believing when you can’t feel, and knowing that His presence remains even when the sensations are gone.

I even had to take a supplement to help calm the psychosis that came when those spiritual doors stayed open too wide. That step wasn’t fear-based — it was faithful. It was obedience. It was trusting that God didn’t need me to keep the gates of the spiritual world open in order for me to walk with Him.

Faith That Doesn’t Need Proof

When I first started reading the Bible, I felt waves of light pour through my body during group study. It felt like confirmation — as if heaven was saying, You’re home. After healing my mind and letting go of constant supernatural sensation, I don’t feel that light anymore. But now, I don’t need to.

I know it’s still there. I trust that He is still there. That’s what faith looks like — believing even when you don’t feel.

Having constant confirmation through visions, energy, or your “third eye” might feel reassuring, but it can also feed the ego. It becomes a comfort to our flesh more than nourishment to our spirit. Faith, on the other hand, is the willingness to not know, to not feel, and to still believe.

Discerning Without Becoming Fearful

At the same time, I’ve learned that it’s possible to take discernment too far — to become like the Pharisees, calling everything blasphemy or assuming that every supernatural experience is demonic. That kind of rigidity doesn’t honor God either; it’s just another form of fear dressed as holiness.

Jesus didn’t rebuke people for experiencing the Spirit — He rebuked those who closed their hearts to it. The key is not rejecting all spiritual movement, but surrendering every experience to the authority of Christ. If something is truly from God, it will draw us closer to His heart, not to our own sense of power or control.

Letting Go of What Was Never Yours to Carry

What you gained through New Age initiations, attunements, or energy practices can be let go of. You don’t have to hold on to them in fear of losing your identity or “light.” If the gift is from God, He can restore it in His time and in His purified form. And if it wasn’t from Him, letting it fall away is mercy, not loss.

The Holy Spirit doesn’t need us to cling to counterfeit power — He offers something far greater: peace, truth, and freedom that doesn’t drain us but restores us.

Taking the Gift of Understanding Forward

Still, what you saw and felt in the New Age doesn’t have to be wasted. Those experiences showed you that the spiritual world is real — that light and darkness exist, and that the battle truly is for our souls. You know God is real because you’ve witnessed what the absence of His protection feels like.

You don’t have to stay in that realm to keep the wisdom you gained from it. Now, you carry that understanding forward with discernment. You’ve moved from participation to perspective — from searching to knowing. That’s what spiritual maturity looks like: you no longer need to feel the energy to trust the Presence. You simply believe, because you know.

Faith Over Frequency

In a world that glorifies the supernatural, it’s radical to choose peace. In a culture obsessed with “activation,” it’s holy to wait. And in a spiritual climate full of voices, it’s freeing to tune into just one — the voice of the Shepherd.

I still believe in the gifts of the Spirit. I just believe even more in the Giver. If He wants to reopen those doors, He will — but this time, it will be His hand, not mine, that turns the key.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.” — Proverbs 3:5–6