Confusion Is Not from God: Reflections on Leaving the New Age

Today, Sunday, April 27, 2025, I attended my first regular church service — not a holiday like Christmas or Easter, but just an ordinary Sunday. And yet, it wasn’t ordinary at all: it was the Lord’s Day, a remembrance of the resurrection of Jesus.

After twelve years of spiritual exploration, I am now ready to fully embrace Jesus and join the church, having emerged from the challenges and deceptions of the New Age. My trials along that dark and winding path gave me the clarity to understand who Jesus truly is. And yet, I am humbled to see that many people at church today didn’t need to walk through all that darkness to believe.

When I used to attend church years ago, I felt uneasy, unsure, and honestly a little out of place. Singing hymns felt awkward. Listening to sermons felt boring. I couldn’t wait for it to be over — mostly because I didn’t understand what was happening. (I wasn’t raised in the church; I just attended occasionally with friends or family when it came up.)

Every person involved in the New Age has their own deeply personal experiences. However, more and more, I am noticing a beautiful trend: people on that path are being called to Jesus. I am extremely grateful to be part of that group making the transition.

As for me, I had many reasons for walking away from the New Age. I’m always interested in hearing others' stories and reasons, but for me, it came down to this: accepting humanity as it is, rather than striving for unattainable perfection.

The New Age often involves shaming people for their flaws — all in the name of “growth.”At some point, I realized that was a deception. I wanted to love myself as God made me, not follow flawed New Age teachers who, with their insulting feedback, led me further away from true self-love and left me vulnerable to spiritual attack. They spoke constantly about "raising your vibration," yet seemed to forget that shame sits near the bottom of the vibrational scale. The irony of that still leaves me confused when I reflect on it.

1 Corinthians 14:33"For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace, as in all churches of the saints."

If something leads to confusion, it is not from God. Period. I faced so much confusion in the New Age — endless confusion. There were never clear answers, there was abuse, gaslighting and cognitive dissonance, and the cycles of suffering just kept repeating.

I'm not saying my experiences didn’t shape me or help me find a deeper connection to God — they did. But I want to gently remind anyone reading: confusion is a key signal from God.

It’s a bright, flashing alarm meant to guide us home, not keep us lost. If you're hearing that alarm today, know that His peace is already reaching out to you. You are not alone. You are being called into the Light.

🕊️ A Closing Prayer

Heavenly Father, thank You for being a God of peace, and not of confusion. Thank You for making it clear to us that confusion is a sign that I have fallen off the Godly path. Thank You for calling me out of darkness and into Your marvelous light. Thank You for the gift of sight, that I may discern this confusion when it appears and navigate safely back to You. I pray for every heart reading these words — that they would hear Your voice above all others, that You would guide them with clarity, mercy, and love. Lead me and lead us all closer to You. In Jesus's name. Amen.

🤍 You're Invited

If you're feeling confusion or wrestling with questions, you're not alone. Feel free to share your story in the comments or reach out — I would be honored to walk alongside you and pray for you.