"We Are Not Taking You With Us"

Within the past couple of years, I had a romantic relationship with someone who had fully embraced his darkness—just as the dogma of the New Age often encourages. He was one of the most prideful, arrogant, and selfish people I had ever “dated,” though occasionally he would channel an alternate personality that seemed humble, generous, and kind. It was a typical lesson around dating someone who has narcissistic traits, but with a heavy dose of spiritual and demonic flair.

We connected at what was, without a doubt, the most vulnerable time of my life. I was recovering from PTSD after leaving a controlling Korean cult. I was lonely, living in my parents’ freezing cold basement, and had just come home from a failed four-month stint in Sedona. On top of that, I was under intense spiritual warfare and desperate to rebuild my life with fresh, positive memories. Then this man walked in—someone I had known as an acquaintance for over 15 years—who now believed himself to be a god in the New Age 😊.

In many ways, that relationship became a crash course in discernment—especially concerning men. It also became a turning point in my journey out of the New Age. Not directly, but through a series of revelations. For one, he was an occasional alcoholic, but not just any kind. He was the kind of alcoholic who was clearly under demonic oppression. (If you feel like you have to drink and feel oppressed when you can’t—that might be you.)

Watching his struggle with addiction helped me recognize my own addiction to spiritual energy. I could sense and sometimes even see the entities that tormented him—and that awareness pushed me to begin dismantling the energetic forces that were attached to me, especially due to my qigong practice. I began telling those energies, “I don’t need you. I love myself just as I am—without all that energy.” When I felt them trying to return, I simply said, “Nope.”

But trust me—it’s not as easy as just saying “no.” These energies don’t leave without a fight. When you stop upholding your end of the bargain, the entities that were “using” you can get angry. Coming out of New Age deception is a process. It can take years—especially if you don’t have God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. And even when you do, you still need to recognize your sins, repent, and put your full trust in the Lord.

Beyond the addictions, being around this man was like watching a live Satanic performance. Everything was dark, strange, and spiritually heavy. He had shockingly low self-awareness—despite the New Age emphasis on introspection. He journaled, meditated, and even claimed to have written a book about himself. Yet there seemed to be little fruit of real transformation. I believe that’s because he had largely walked his spiritual path alone, without many meaningful relationships to sharpen or humble him.

To be clear, the point of this blog isn’t to talk about this guy, lol. Honestly, I rarely think about him anymore.

The real takeaway is this: at some point during that relationship, I began to realize something disturbing. Although I had previously felt immersed in “light,” I started to see how that same light energy was on the same team as the dark forces surrounding him. I couldn’t have articulated it clearly at the time, but the awareness was enough to prompt me to begin dismantling it. And that one dismantling led to another... and another... and another.

The spiritual warfare that followed became overwhelming. I experienced sneers, growls, and even violent attacks from dark forces. It was terrifying. And it all stemmed from my involvement in qigong and energy healing.

One night, I heard a clear message in the spirit: “We are not taking you with us.”

At the time, I felt rejected and disappointed, like I had failed some divine or cosmic purpose. I even went through a dark period of grief, questioning if I was a fallen angel or beyond redemption. It was one of the worst emotional and spiritual valleys of my life, although sadly not the only one.

But today—I know that message was great news. It was a turning point. It was freedom. And it was God's mercy.

It took me about one more torturous year after that spiritual turning point to fully invite Jesus into my heart. And then, another five months after that moment before I had a deep, undeniable experience with our Lord—one that finally began to shift me back into the safety and truth of God’s Kingdom.

Let me tell you: Satan is very, very misleading.

He doesn’t come to you as a monster. He comes disguised in light. He hooks you with things that seem healing, helpful, and empowering—but are really just tricks and manipulations. It’s all a beautifully wrapped lie.

This is why we must be on guard. This is why we must be rooted in God’s Word.

It is not just helpful—it’s vital. When you don’t know the truth, you are vulnerable to deception, even if your heart is in the right place. I speak from experience. I wasn’t chasing darkness—I thought I was chasing light. But without the grounding of Scripture, I was chasing an illusion that led me straight into bondage.

I praise God for His mercy and for the grace that pulled me out.

If you’re reading this and you’re on the fence—maybe you’re involved in energy healing, spiritual practices, or seeking truth in the New Age—please know this: there is no true healing without Jesus. 

There is no real freedom without the blood of Christ. All other roads might sparkle for a while, but they eventually lead to oppression, confusion, and pain.

Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life.

And He’s waiting for you, just like He waited for me.

“For Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light.”– 2 Corinthians 11:14 (NIV)

This verse is such a clear reminder that not everything that looks or feels like "light" is from God. It's crucial to test every spirit and remain grounded in biblical truth.

🕊️ Closing Prayer

Heavenly Father,

Thank You for Your unending grace and mercy.

Thank You for pulling me out of darkness and deception and into the light of Your truth.

I pray for anyone reading this who is feeling confused, lost, or caught in spiritual practices that lead them away from You.

Open their eyes, Lord.

Shine Your light into the hidden places and reveal what is not from You.

Give us all discernment in these days.

Help us hunger for Your Word, to seek Your face above all else, and to walk in true freedom through Jesus Christ.

I repent for the times I sought power, healing, or identity outside of You.

I surrender all that I am to You now.

There is only one God.

And, Jesus, You are the only way to God. I choose You—now and forever.

In Jesus' name, Amen.